Lately i feel that my bond with my current class is weaken tremandously.Maybe because i have been spending too much time with my ex-classmates that i have been ignoring my currents mates.Well the sole reason im with them more than im with the class is that they make me feel accepted and welcome.

This isnt the treatment i received in my current class.Maybe it is just that people cannot accept my personality as it is or they have not yet know me as a person in great depth.I confess im an attention seeker.I always want to be someone who is accepted by everyone.Im lonely person and friends are the only one that provide me with the warmth and attention i desperately need.I have tried out with certain cliques but they are always conflicts here and there.Sometimes this conflicts are created by myself and my feelings.....I know i can survive on my own cause i know i have ALLAH and RASUL in my heart but life would not be a smooth ride if it just stops there.Friends bring the true beauty to life....

Right now im my class i feel as if im a passing cloud hovering a certain cliques and when the wind blows it is time for me to go.....Maybe i should go the extra me and make myself feel accepted and not wait for them to accept me and spends more time with my currents class mates so i do get the best outcome.No point getting jealous over someone who have been accepted and getting emotional everytime.Im a darned competitive being and can afford to see myself on the losing side but in this case it is not about winning or losing it is about being accepted and in society you have to make the afford to gain something and cannot just wait at a corner and expect miracle to happens.

Though there a bound to be people who cannot accepted and will try to make myself accepted but if i fail,there is nothing more i can do.So for next week onwards i will try to strike a balance between my my Ex-class and this current mates...

One other thing is that i do not have to bottle uo everything or else i might just explode.Well even though it might be embarrassing to confess it is still better to be told than to be kept.At least now i know there are people around me whom i can share my feelings and emotions with....

It is better to talk than to keep quite,even if one is alone,he can always talk to ALLAH because he is the only one that will be there for you 24/7