Finally the verdict is out.Im out of the 20 man squad.Im no longer a school team player(i think i never was),im now just a soccer helper(a nicer way to call rejects).Mr David made the correct choice by rejecting me...he has the interest of the school and the team at heart.

Confused.A part of me want to say that,''Failure is the mother of success" while the other side of me want to say ,you are lucky to the biggest failure in the world because im worst.Call me a loser,failure,hopeless and good for nothing and i'll accept it readily because those are the truth.

Today is the first time in such a long long time that i felt tears of sadness and disappoinment trickled down my cheecks.I tried to control them but just cant be helped.

Im really disappointed with myself.So far my achievement is nil.Now i can never lift my head high in the field.In everything i joined or participate in,im a failure.Maybe im just not cut out to play soccer well or any other sports.I'll just return to where and what im suppose to do like what i did during my secondary school days: play soccer strictly for leisure and nothing else and sit in front of the tv and watch a game.

As a whole i try to look at the positive side of this rejection:
1)I have never been fitter in my life till now when i joined soccer.
2)The extra time and my energy can be channeled entirely to my studies since i have no other commitments.
3)I got 2 nice jerseys for display since i dont think im worthy of wearing it.
4)It is time for me to start afresh and have new goals.
5)GOD know best and im sure there is some hidden benefits for me or this might just an obstacle for me to test my faith.